pain

and the lord wouldn't respond
and the lord wouldn't help
as I stood there year after year
waiting
praying each and every day
hope came and left
faith I lost on the way
pain I gained from it all
and at the end stronger then ever
as my spirit left its shelter
as my life became nothing
lifeless
empty
as my body gave up
my heart died of sorrow

alone

im not afraid of death
I wait with open arms
welcoming death to my soul
to come and take my spirit away
this shelter its been in has been cast to die
im not afraid of death
im just afraid of being alone

Love me

love me today
how do I ask for your love
I stand here begging you
and a beggar I am not
love me today
that's all I ask of you
love me forever
please don't let me be alone
for my loneliness is killing me slowly

Lonely

if my loneliness does not kill me
my heart will give up on me one of these days
surely
this I know for sure
as life stops leading me eventually
as my spirit left my shell of a body
as my soul gave up on me
left me here all alone to survive
with nothing nor anyone
as I cried until there were no more tears
even if I tried
my loneliness killed me
left me all alone
in this lifeless body

lifeless

as my world stops
yours goes on
shameless u stand
hopeless I lay
sinful u r
sinless I stand
as u corrupt my world of sorrow
and drown my soul in the sea
lifeless I've become

you have taken away all of my energy
I've become my own enemy
and yet your life goes on

Lonely nights

tears on my pillow
so many nights
so many fights
tears on my pillow
so many nights
so many thoughts
tears on my pillow

woman cried mercy

and the woman said
don’t let go of my hand
and the woman cried
but her cries were never heard
and she crawled on the floor
begging for mercy
and the woman said
please don’t let go of my hand
and the woman cried
and nothing mattered
and no one cared to hold her
all she needed was some comfort

sky so blue

blue sky
you know who you are
blue sky
when you aren’t so clear
let the light shine through
let it be bright and blue
blue sky
you know who you are
blue sky
when you aren’t so clear

Painting

its like a painting
like face upon a face
a feeling
its like a painting
an empty room
an empty place

a face without a place

a soul without a home

Troubled souls

souls corrupted
thoughts of suicide
running through my head
over & over again
think about dreaming
dreaming about killing
nothing in this world is healing
when thoughts of suicide
are not leaving
your mined is corrupted
your soul hunted
daunted by memories of the past
of how our souls were cast